“Are you ready, sweetheart?” Henry affectionately patted
the dainty hand tucked into the crook of his elbow. He and Petey were paused just outside the doorway
through which their mother had just vanished to take her seat. Anxiously waiting the time for their entrance,
Gavin was bouncing on his toes, torso already leaning in to the living
room-turned-chapel.
Swishing the satin fishtail of her skirt, she squeezed Henry’s
arm and, with Herculean effort, forced herself to smile up at him. There was no way in hell she was going to
lose it now, not two seconds before she got married.
“Hope is the thing
with feathers
That perches in the
soul,
And sings the tune
without the words,
And never stops at
all”
The quick shot of mental Valium, courtesy of Emily
Dickinson, was enough to allow her to form words of her own. “I’m ready.”
“You were reciting, weren’t you?” He peered at her with the all-knowing eyes of
a wise older brother. Henry had been
witness to her anxiety attacks too many times for her to try and hide it.
Gavin stilled his bouncing long enough to offer a
muttered, “Well I see the genius doesn’t fall far from the brain stem. When hasn’t
she been reciting today, Einstein?”
“Be quiet.” She commanded
with a scowl before reassuringly patting her brother’s hand. “Yes, but it’s
okay.”
“There’s still time to walk away, you know. If you’re not sure about this, there’s
nothing that says you have to go through with it. We can be at the airport before anyone
realizes you’re gone.”
He made a half-hearted attempted to pull her toward the
front door, but Petey dug in her heels and refused to budge. “I don’t want to walk away. I’m scared, but it doesn’t change the fact
that I love him and want him to love me.”
He harrumphed and straightened his dark tie, grumbling, “Yeah,
well. He loves you.”
She had only half a second to process Henry’s begrudging acknowledgement
before the gentle strains of piano music floated through the air, signaling
that it was time to begin.
Jon, David and Richie had chosen all the music for the
ceremony, with Petey’s blessing. She and
her mother had commandeered so many of the wedding plans that she felt
compelled to leave this part to Jon.
Although, with David responsible for the musical execution, she was now
questioning the wisdom of that decision.
It was possible that he could do anything.
That thought foremost in her mind she stood her ground,
unwilling to step out until she had positively identified the song that would
usher her down the aisle. It took
about twenty seconds, but she did eventually recognize it. It was ‘No One’, by Alicia Keys, and the lyrics
rushed at her consciousness like a gust of overpowering wind.
“People keep
talking
They can say what
they like
But all I know is
Everything's gonna
be alright”
Did Jon pick this
song? Is he telling me something with
those unsung lyrics? Or had he taken the
easy way out and simply asked David to choose something ‘appropriate’?
Her heart skipped a beat.
Then another.
Stop being a such a
GIRL! This is not a reason to panic. He’s out there waiting for you.
Isn’t he?
Damn it all. She
was going into an anxiety attack. Petey
commanded forth the rest of Ms. Dickinson’s words, only to find her mind…. blank.
For the first time ever, the words wouldn’t come. The music in her ears was overriding her
natural ability to hide behind a soothing litany of memorized passages.
“If you’re doing this, it’s time to do it.”
Terrified fingers executed a stranglehold on her bouquet
and Petey’s lungs seized with trepidation.
It was only with Henry’s gentle nudge that she was able to will her cute
black boot to take that first step into the room.
Nervous eyes immediately swept past the sea of faces staring expectantly at her, and sought out the man at the altar.
He was there. Jon was there. Waiting for her, and so very handsome, standing tall and proud in his dark suit, hands folded together. The carelessly tousled mop of his hair was made bright by the winter sun streaming through the over-sized windows.
He was there. Jon was there. Waiting for her, and so very handsome, standing tall and proud in his dark suit, hands folded together. The carelessly tousled mop of his hair was made bright by the winter sun streaming through the over-sized windows.
The words that had been hiding from Petey came bursting
through the mental dam like a tidal wave.
Jesus! Jon’s breath caught in his throat. He and Richie had their eyes diligently
trained on the back of the room when she made her entrance, clinging to Henry’s
arm. Was it his imagination or was she a
little paler than usual?
It was a fleeting thought as his eyes were stolen by the
rest of her…
Peering around Gavin, he could see that the pale pink of
the dress matched the roses in her bouquet.
The corset hugged her torso in all the right places, her breasts covered
with the same black lace as their cake.
Below that there was a double-bow of pink and black, and below that was
nothing but figure-hugging pink satin.
Black boots peeked out from beneath the skirt, and he could see a flash
of silver on her right ankle.
Richie’s bracelet.
Forcing the corner of his mouth to cock upward in
amusement was her hat. Only the
beautifully eccentric woman he was about to marry would wear a top hat on her
wedding day. He couldn’t see the back,
but there was a feathery pink halo peeking out from behind her head.
She came closer, her footsteps in time with the music
that was thrumming through his veins. He
wasn’t surprised to see a black choker around her neck, but it was infinitely fussier
than any he’d seen her wear before.
Black, shiny beads mimicked the lacy pattern of the corset, and – his
eyes slid up to her face as drew within feet of him – her makeup. The lace around those brilliant blue eyes was
‘tatted’ from black and pink sparkles.
Gavin assumed his position on the opposite side of the
aisle while Henry curled his big paw around Petey’s tiny hand and squeezed
before releasing her into Jon’s custody.
While David quietly wound down
the song Jon had chosen for Petey’s walk, Jon skimmed her features, pale under
the elaborate cosmetics. Cotton candy lip
gloss caught the light as her mouth moved silently.
She’s reciting.
The final notes faded away leaving the room quiet and David
scooted back from the piano, ready to join them at the altar.
With a gentle smile, Jon bent until his lips brushed the
shell of her ear. He folded her gloved fingers
into his palm and held them there, allowing the warmth from his hand to
penetrate the cool satin. Very, very
softly he whispered, “I. Am. Yours.
Do you understand me?”
Petey sucked in an audible breath as though she were
breaking the surface of the water after a long dive. Goose bumps danced a Latin rumba under her
gloves. The velvet sheathed words of
steel did it to her every time.
“Nod your head,” he prompted with no more than a ghost of
sound resonating against her eardrum. “You can tell me ‘yes, sir’ later. Loudly.”
This was Jon. He
would boss, she would argue, they would fight, make up and love one
another. Probably every day, several
times a day. They went at it all with
everything they had, and would still come out at the end of the day standing
side-by-side. She couldn’t think of anything
more perfect, or anyone more perfect for her.
He was hers and she was his.
Muscles that had been tied in complex Boy Scout’s knots
melted away poured out of her neck and shoulders as though they were made of no
more than water. Petey felt the sun rise
on her face as she imperceptibly inclined her head, cheeks deeply creasing in a
euphoric grin.
“Good girl.” His lips dusted her cheek for the faintest of
kisses. “You look gorgeous.”
“You mind if we interrupt your intimate moment with a wedding?” David intoned lazily, his hands pushed into
the pant pockets of his own dark suit.
“Or should we all go home and come back later?”
That drew a few chuckles from the crowd, but, unaffected,
Jon merely straightened and took half a step back, his eyes never leaving
Petey’s and not releasing his grasp on her fingers. There was an undefined emotion swimming in
the depths of the bottomless blue irises when he spoke a gruff, “Just get on
with it.”
“Alrighty then.”
David rubbed his hands together with what could be perceived as maniacal
glee before folding them demurely together in front of him. “Friends and family, we’ve joined together
today to celebrate the unexpected union of Jon and Petey. I say unexpected because on the surface,
there’s no one any more different than these two. A Goth electronics genius and a musician
turned conservative businessman aren’t exactly two halves of the same walnut.”
Petey smothered a grin when Jon’s eyes narrowed into
menacing slits. She could hear the
non-verbal warning being issued as though it were blaring through a
bullhorn. David was being told to watch
himself.
“Even though I understand they got off to a rocky start,
Jon finally pulled his head out of his a.. – “ David bit off the word with a cough and then
cleared his throat. “Excuse me. Adjusted his attitude and found that he
wanted to look past the combat boots and piercings. Eventually, Petey let him.”
God, it all seemed so long ago. All of the relentless questions and the
determined charm that had worn down her resistance were a pleasant, but distant
memory. His determined guidance of her
sexual awakening was a little more fresh in her mind, but still in another time
zone from where they stood today.
“Before we get to the main event, though, there are a
couple of other items on the agenda.”
His wide grin was directed toward the room at large. “What musician is going to get married
without a song, right? We all know Jon
can’t pass up a chance to perform.”
Snapping her head around, Petey asked in a quietly
incredulous voice, “You’re going to sing?”
“Yeah. Is that
okay?”
“Of course it is, but… “ He’d told her flat out if she
was looking for someone to serenade her with love songs, he wasn’t that guy.
“I can try and be a little romantic just this once. For your wedding day.”
The look of adoration that lit her eyes justified his
feeling of impending humiliation. You’d
think he was about to streak, not sing a simple song, but this wasn’t the kind
of personal gesture he was comfortable with in private, much less in front of a
room full of people who knew him. Who
knew full-well that he didn’t do this kind of thing.
Releasing her hand with one last gentle squeeze, Jon
inhaled through his nose and unobtrusively blew the breath out through his mouth. He grabbed the neck of the Takamine he’d
stowed in the front closet and climbed onto the padded barstool that had been
brought up from the Shoe Inn.
A light strum assured him the strings were still in tune,
and his eyes drifted to a vacant spot on the floor even as he addressed the
entire room.
“This song isn’t entirely appropriate, in more ways than
one, but I heard it a couple weeks back and couldn’t get it out of my head.” Now he lifted his gaze to find Petey watching
him attentively. Jon let the left corner of his mouth slip into faint
smile. “I knew then that I was going to
end up singing it for you. I’m not Axl
Rose, and I don’t whistle, so bear with me.
It’s called ‘Patience’.”
His eyes slid back to that distant spot on the floor as
he began the leisurely and somewhat lengthy introduction. Occasionally he would concentrate on his
fingers and assure himself of their placement on the guitar’s neck, but, for
the most part, he stared unseeingly at the rich parquet.
It wasn’t until he began to softly croon the lyrics that
his eyes sought human visual contact.
The fingers that had needed such close supervision a moment ago now
moved with careless expertise and he sang to, and for, Petey.
“Shed a tear ‘cause I’m missing you
I’m still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn’t sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you’re in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It’ll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar take it slow
And we’ll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience”
Jon was right. It
wasn’t entirely appropriate, because she wasn’t technically Patience and they
hadn’t taken anything slow, but it didn’t mean the song and the man singing it
touched her heart any less. She could
understand why it had stuck with him. The
lyrics even used his pet name for her – Sugar.
“I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now
I'll wait, dear
Sometimes I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love
There's one more thing to consider
Said, woman, take it slow
And things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
‘Cause the lights they’re shining bright
‘Cause you and I’ve got what it takes to
make it
We won’t fake it, ooh never break it
‘Cause I can’t take it”
He went back to studying his fingers through what she
remembered as the guitar solo, absently crooning, “Patience,” throughout until
he quietly faded the notes away without finishing the last verse.
She wasn’t a Guns ‘n Roses fan, but she was a Jon fan and his arrangement of
the song was perfectly suited for this day, this occasion. When he reseated the Tak in its stand and
returned to her side, Petey pushed up on her tip toes. Tickling his cheek with a kiss, she whispered
in his ear, “Thank you. It was perfect.”
“I’m glad you liked it, Sugar.” He bent at the waist, intent upon touching
his lips to hers, but David had a different idea.
Shoving a long arm in between the bride and groom, he ran
interference like a professional linebacker and used his forearm to restrain
Jon just enough to keep them apart. “Ah,
ah. We’re not there yet, but that does
bring us to the heart of today’s program,” he kept the ceremony flowing
smoothly. “If you’ll both face one
another and hold hands, Jon can start with his vows.”
The bouquet was passed to Gavin, who immediately stepped
forward to accept it and the gloves that Petey peeled down her arms. Her bare hands came to rest in Jon’s, where
they drank in the warmth of his touch.
He inspected the short, glossy pink nails before closing
his fingers around them. Jon had a
general idea of what he wanted to say, but hadn’t bothered to make notes. Now he was wondering if maybe he should
have. There was only one shot to do this
right.
“It’s been a wild couple of months since I first opened
the door to my brother’s idea of revenge.”
He tipped his head toward Tony, who sat in the second row of seats with
Romeo perched on one thigh and Dottie's hand resting on the other.
"He thought it would be funny to send his demanding older brother, who can barely operate a remote control, an electronics geek named Petey to ‘fix’ his TV. What he neglected to mention was that Petey was a woman."
"It was funny," was heard clearly throughout the room and he shot Tony a half-hearted stink eye.
“I made her show I.D. and everything,” he reminisced with a rueful grin. “Then, after she walked into my apartment, I was instantly fascinated with the aloof little imp and her crazy colored contact lenses. Lemme tell ya, she wasn’t the least bit fascinated with me, though.”
"He thought it would be funny to send his demanding older brother, who can barely operate a remote control, an electronics geek named Petey to ‘fix’ his TV. What he neglected to mention was that Petey was a woman."
"It was funny," was heard clearly throughout the room and he shot Tony a half-hearted stink eye.
“I made her show I.D. and everything,” he reminisced with a rueful grin. “Then, after she walked into my apartment, I was instantly fascinated with the aloof little imp and her crazy colored contact lenses. Lemme tell ya, she wasn’t the least bit fascinated with me, though.”
“That’s what you thought,” she murmured.
“Along the way, she finally started to let me in and
started answering about one percent of my million questions. Then it was two percent, five percent, ten
percent, until I didn’t have to ask anymore.
I blinked my eyes and she was openly sharing herself with me.”
Jon’s chest tightened.
It was true. She didn’t hide
herself from him anymore. His Petey was
right there with her eyes stripped naked of cloaking contact lenses, showing
him any and everything he was willing to see.
“We haven’t had the most conventional road to the altar,
but I can’t imagine it being any more ‘us’.
Petey Diehl, Patience Heinz…” He offered
up a wide, incorrigible grin. “P.B.J. … I love all the facets of you – girl genius,
angry imp, generous soul, tender and insightful woman. I stand before you today and promise that, no
matter what we go through, I’ll still be standing beside you on the other side
of it. There’s nothing – short of you or
death – than can make me walk away.
Sugar, for the rest of my life, I’m yours. That’s my vow.”
Glittered eyelashes batted as ice-blue eyes melted into
the deep-sea of his sincere gaze. She
wouldn’t doubt it again. He’d made his
point. Repeatedly. Jon wasn’t a man who made empty promises and
it was time to stop second-guessing him.
“Petey has elected to go with the traditional vows,”
David segued into her portion of the ceremony.
Keeping it simple had been her original intention, as she
didn’t trust herself to speak off-the-cuff in front of this many people. In light of Jon’s vows though, she couldn’t
recite canned, traditional promises. He
deserved something as personal as he’d given her.
“I changed my mind,” she interrupted apologetically. “Unfortunately, I don’t possess the groom’s
eloquent public speaking skills, so I’m going to fall back on what I am good at – recitation.” Petey offered Jon a shy smile. “As I was walking down the aisle toward you,
I was reminded of a poem I once read.
Maybe it was in the program of a wedding I attended? I can’t be sure of where I saw it, but it is
the perfect expression for this moment, and I’d like to share that poem with
you, as my vows. The title is ‘Why
Marriage?’”
The words bubbled up, not from the same place as her
rambling this afternoon, but a softer place.
This was no defensive battle of words against anxiety. This was the gentle swell and outpouring of a
much sweeter emotion.
“Because to the depths of me, I long to love one person,
With all my heart, my soul, my mind, my body...
Because I need a forever friend to trust with the
intimacies of me,
Who won't hold them against me,
Who loves me when I'm unlikable,
Who sees the small child in me, and
Who looks for the divine potential of me...
Because I need to cuddle in the warmth of the night
With someone who thanks God for me,
With someone I feel blessed to hold...
Because marriage means opportunity
To grow in love in friendship...
Because marriage is a discipline
To be added to a list of achievements...
Because marriages do not fail, people fail
When they enter into marriage
Expecting another to make them whole...
Because, knowing this,
I promise myself to take full responsibility
For my spiritual, mental and physical wholeness
I create me,
I take half of the responsibility for my marriage
Together we create our marriage...
Because with this understanding
The possibilities are limitless.”
Without taking a breath, Petey added a barely audible “I’m
yours”, intended for his ears only. Jon
rewarded her with a look of smoldering appreciation that set her heart aflutter.
God, I love him. I love
the way he can make me feel with just a look.
She would be surprised to know how similar his thoughts
were at that very moment.
My God, I love her.
She doesn’t even know what she does to me
with those soft eyes and sweet words.
“Do you have the rings?”
This question was asked of both Gavin and Richie, who readily produced
the jewelry that would symbolize Jon and Petey’s marriage. “Petey, would you repeat after me?”
Nodding, she took the black wedding band sliding it up to
Jon’s first knuckle. Listening to David’s
words and committing them to memory, she solemnly echoed, “Jon, I give you this
ring as a symbol of my love and faithfulness.
As I place it on your finger, I commit my heart and soul to you for today,
tomorrow and always.”
The skull-etched band slid into place with the final word,
eliciting Jon’s satisfied smile. After
turning to accept her ring from Richie, he slid the pink and black diamond band
up to her first knuckle before earnestly delivering the same pledge. “Petey, I give you this ring as a symbol of my
love and faithfulness. As I place it on
your finger, I commit my heart and soul to you for today, tomorrow and always.”
When the platinum band was snugged against the webbing of
her fingers, David requested that they both turn and face forward.
“Today,” he told them with uncharacteristic seriousness, “you
step from two separate, individual paths to walk a new path – a single, unified
path. It may not always be an easy or
pleasant one, but it will be your
path, the one that you forge together.
Along the way, there will be obstacles to overcome and lessons to learn –
tolerance, acceptance, compromise – these are only a few. You’ve committed to one another today, but will
you commit to learning these lessons, too?”
“I will,” Petey acquiesced without pause.
Jon’s reply was a little slower in coming, not because of
indecision, but because of contemplation.
“I will.” He gripped her hands a
little too tightly. He looked into her eyes
a little too fiercely. “More importantly,
I will commit the rest of my life to learning Patience. In every possible sense.”
Loved the song choice for her walk down the aisle ;) Once he told her to nod her head, that she could tell him 'Yes, Sir' later....I was hooked! Well done!
ReplyDeleteLove love love it. Will look forward to the next post.
ReplyDelete*wipes tears* For me, this goes down as my all time favorite chapter from any story I've ever read. Really Blushy, you have written a masterpiece here. I'm not at all surprised, but I am speechless. <3
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I don't think I have words Blush...that was absolutely beautiful. Thank you for putting the "I'm Yours" in the vows. That was just perfect. I will wait until I take a break at work to turn into a blubbery mess, but definitely have tears in my eyes. (Happy tears.)
ReplyDelete:) :) :) -Sue
Dang it! The girl across from my office is looking at me like I've gone crazy! That was just beautiful. Perfect!
ReplyDelete--Amanda
Good thing I'm the only one in the office today, cause I really don't know how I'd explain the tears and laughter.
ReplyDeleteWho cares if the song was "appropriate" - it was perfect for this wedding, this couple.
The vows were beautiful. Wonderful job, Blush.
David added the perfect touch of laughter to the ceremony. And, his bit at the end about obstacles to overcome & lessons to learn was touching.
And, Tony's right...it WAS funny.
O M G . I'm in tears, I have no words, I have to read that again. It's wonderful, heartbreaking, romantic and and and so much more
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, Very beautiful. I too cried. What a ceramony. Not what I expected but I should know not to do that. Your stories keep me on my toes.
ReplyDeleteYou should be very proud of this chapter. I is one I will go back to again and again. It's perfect from the dress to shoes and cake and flowers and Jon and David and well everything.
Thank you!
Oh before I close. I am honored. Your next chapter will post on my birthday.
The perfect ceremony for the perfect couple!
ReplyDeleteEllen
Could not ask for better!
ReplyDeleteAwwww!
ReplyDeletePerfect!
And Lemma behaved!
Thank God he behaved! If he was being David, it would have spoiled it. Save that for the reception.
DeleteI am so happy that I came to this wedding. It was all Petey. Congratulations to the newlyweds!
ReplyDeleteI never thought I would see the day that Jon would sing a Gunners song but it fitted.
ReplyDeleteI want to see a picture of the rings.
I don't have an exact photo of Jon's, but I posted what I do have. :)
DeleteI'm with Audra perfect dream wedding God you had me wishing to marry again NOT! Well if it was Jon or Richie I could be pursueded to without question!!! Lucky Petey........ Just awesome writing girl!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm throwing confetti! I am reading this and I could not have wanted a better chapter.
ReplyDeleteI'm crying here. Everything sounded beautiful, wonderful and lovely. The vows were perfect. Thank you for providing the pictures of the dress, flowers, cake and the rings. I can picture everything in my mind. I can't believe that Jon and Petey are now married!! - BELINDA!
ReplyDeleteI'm going to whine just a teenie tiny bit. You said the entire wedding was gonna be in this chapter, but there was no kiss. Is that in the next chapter? That's my favorite part of a wedding!!! Other than that, this chapter was beautiful! Well worth the wait!!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully done my friend. I had tears in my eyes from the beginning. They way you described every aspect had me feeling like I was sitting in the room with them. Bravo!
ReplyDeleteExcellent chapter...I want her wedding band as my own!!!..I'm just sayin...
ReplyDeleteThank you!!!
WOW going down in history as one of the best chapters of any book/story I have ever read. You are truly talented.
ReplyDeleteEverything was just perfect!
We can all only hope to have one such romantic event in our lives.
PERFECTLY written!
--Denise
Ok don't know how I missed the pic of the rings!!!! God, I so love you persistance to detail woman you made this a total read over and over again for me but them again with jonny in it who wouldn't want to endulge it just shows what a great writer you are I say quit your day job and publish woman!!!!!!! Yeah tomorrow is the 6th new post bout time BAHAHAHA
ReplyDeleteNow singing I think I want to marry you! What a emotional and heart warming chapter. I don't have a dry eye!
ReplyDeleteYou made me tear up AGAIN! You should be so proud of yourself because THIS is a masterpiece! I felt like I was in the room. It was perfection from start to finish. The song, the poem. Perfection!
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